Initially letting go was difficult,
I was struggling within, but
I slept in peace knowing you were happy.
Don't know what made me do it.
Maybe it was the trust in you
Or the guilt of not telling you
Or the deep desire to fly free with you
Whatever the reason be, I did jump the cliff.
Now my heart is even more tormented,
By thoughts of you, the struggles you stow away.
The confusion and fear that beholds you.
The connection that once sparked is no longer alive,
I feel an invisible veil separating us,
One which neither of us is willing to talk about,
In the untold fear of creating new chaos.
Fear cripples me but I play normal,
Each conversation which was once blissful
Now is painted Grey.
